Humans

We aren't necessary.

The way we live, the way we act, the way we evolve, one would  think we are the rulers of our time.

But nay, there is another, who without the grace of, Human species would wither.

I speak of the Earth.

The Earth has taken care of so much. Created so much. Destroyed so much. Yet in its all power, it has created its weakness. Humans.

We live and strive for tomorrow. Hardly do we ever look beyond what we know.

Sitting on the throne that we have molded from the minerals of the Earth, We look down at everything around us. Compete to be king, to be top. But in our competition we have forgotten what we live for. Religion, monies, and government have clouded our purpose on Earth.

The Earth needs us, not our byproduct, our invention,  our waste.

It needs our flesh, our bones, our souls. Without them, there isn't much future for anyone.

In the beginning...

The First Encounter With The Third Kind

Walking around the picnic table I grabbed a fist full of chips and sat
down. My parents, being noticeably unsociable for the past 17 years
of my life had surprisingly thrown together a barbeque for our friends.
Never ever In my life had my parents thrown anything before. Any
birthdays were small, only 2 or 3 friends and a small cake. I envied
kids with big parties. Once o went to my friends party at the FunFest
down the street and I cried to my parents the whole way home. But I
had gotten used to the "never a host" idea. It suited us well.
The jumbles of people wandered though our back yard, looking at my
mothers flowers, playing croquet, or just socializing. I sat on the
hard bench and munched the harsh chips. My gaze settled on a couple
standing above a small Irish looming child. The you g boy ran off to
join the others for a game of hide and seek, and the parents stood
proudly after their offspring. They turned to another and smiled. So
softly the gazed upon another. Basking in the sweet love that they
carried for the other. I didn't long for it, but something inside me
panged for a feeling like that. Almost sourly.

The party began to wind down and people began to gather their
belongings. My mother insisted that I stand by the door with her and
my father to see our guests out. We paid our wishes to all of our good
friends as they left. Near the end of the exiting line, were some
people I had never met before. A man stood next to my dad, looking
down at him.
"Sophe, come and meet one of my co workers." my mother prompted as she
turned back to them.
"Sophe this is Carol and Guy Rowls." she mentioned toward the couple.
"And this... Is my sophie."
I looked at the woman first, she was medium height. Blonde with a
plain face. About the only striking thing were her eyes. Bright and
almost shining green. She smiled and reached out to shake my hand.
"Nice to finally meet you Sophie, your mom has told me so much about
you." a phrase almost as generic as her face I would say. I looked at
the man next. Guy was his name. Guy was taller than my dad, looking
maybe 6'3. His curly brown hair sat on his head shining almost godly
in the porch light. My mom was blabbing about something work related,
so o used the time to check the rest out. He turned from looking at my
father, and looked at me. His face was thin, but evenly so with his
body. His nose came out just far enough and his smile just wide
enough. Everything on this mans face was amazing. His eyes, like hers,
were bright, but shone with a pale moonlight blue glow. They were just
captivating. I stuck out my hand while still looking at Guy's face.
"Owwwch. Sophe what was that for?" I had accidentally jabbed my mom In
the side.
" Er sorry" I spit out. "I was zoning out, long night I think." I
pulled my hand back in and looked at the floor. I usually don't get
embarrassed, but at this moment I could feel myself blushing. I could
feel the blood galloping to my face, and worse of all, I could feel
his eyes on me. Mom finished her story, while rubbing her Injury, and
began her goodbyes. Before the unseeming couple walked from the porch,
I looked up at his face one last time. He was looking at me. He smiled
a smile that made my head feel light. His skin around his mouth
wrinkled into a beautiful smile. I couldn’t help but to smile back.
That night I helped my parents clean up, took a shower, and climbed
into bed. It was all I could do. What I could not do, is wipe my mind
clean of Guy Rowls.

Awkwardly Attractive Men

I know I have done a post like this before, but recently I've been noticing some weird faces in my somewhat normal array of attractive men. fortunately, I can  see a pattern in the men, that may explain their draw. As you will see below, there seem to be a lot of tall guys, with some sort of Jewish heritage. Ahh the Jews :]

Paul Rudd

He is cute, Isn't he? Paul is only 5'9, but his family is all Jewish. You can see it in his face. Paul first came to my attention at 'Mike Hanagan' of the TV show FRIENDS. After I did some creeping, and found out his background, he was on my list. What's not to love?

Jeff Goldblum

Mr. Goldblum appeals to my inner self. If that make sense. Yes, he does stand at 6'4" just like Conan and Till, but unlike those two, Jeff is Jewish. One thing that turns me on is a great voice, and this guy sure has one. He also believes more in spiritual stuff. He once said that he would rather choose yoga over jogging, because it was soothing to his soul. Um, hello? Yummmy!

Conan O'Brien

Alright well Conan has been on my list for a while. Recently I moved past the whole 'I think you're sexy' phase into a more serious and respectful phase. Conan is a great man, and his family is lucky to have him. Conan stands 6 feet and 4 inches tall. Unlike most of the guys on this list, he has an almost 100% Irish Catholic background.

Till Lindemann

This guy is a new addition, probably influenced by myself seeing the band 

Rammstein live in concert. Till is a strange guy to be on this list, although he is

6' 4" tall. This German guy is 47 (the same age as Conan I might add), and thanks to Hitler, no direct Jewish heritage. I find Till attractive for other reasons than appearance. At first sight I was afraid of him, he stood so tall and wide. But now, after I did some creeping, I found that Till is a shy man. He hates to be in front of a crowd. He's almost like the friendly giant. His eyes just tell it all.

Thats it for now.

Just A Lil'bit

“So where did you apply?”

We sat at a picnic table in the deserted park. Lightning bugs in the distance started to come alive, marking the arrival of dusk.

“Corgate, Theade, and Fairmont. Im leaning towards Theade though, if I’m excepted.”

He looked surprised

“Theade is over 10 hours away. That’s a long drive.” He took his gave away from the pond that glistened in the sun and looked at me.

“Not really planning on coming back that often. Kind of moving on, you know?” I couldn’t say why, but he still looked surprised, and possibly a little hurt.

“Yeah, I guess that would be what you want.” He adjusted on the bench next to me. “I always liked the fact that my family was so far away that I had an excuse not to see them. It was very freeing to me.” He smiled. “I had my chance to experience things on my own for once.”

The sun slid past the clouds and began to fall on the horizon. He stood up and offered me his hand. “Come one” he said, “it’s getting late.” I hesitated but I took it anyway. We walked hand in hand, silently down the cobblestone path and next to the lake. The sun was completely hidden by the horizon now, and the park was near dark. We stopped by the edge of the pond to gaze in.

“Its so different,” I looked at him “to not feel what I usually do.” I hoped that he understood, and looked at his face for a reaction. It was small, but I could tell. He was looking out past the pond where the trees massed and the lightning bugs flamed in the water’s reflection. He spoke almost too softly to hear and I had to inch closer to hear it all.

“I know,” he hesitated, “Its different to me too. It almost…” he looked down into the black water and then at me, “It almost scares me. I feel so comfortable, so sound. Yet I know that where ever this goes, it won’t go for long. Theade is a long drive.” He turned sideways towards me and looked softly at my eyes. He was right, but I for some reason my eyes swelled and I had to bite my cheek to stop the tears.

“I know,” I said. “But that’s what is going to happen. And if it’s not meant to be, then I guess it never will.” Then I did something that I have never done with any guy before. I reached around him and pulled him in. His tall body towered over me and he surrounded me with his soul. I felt him breathing into my hair on my forehead, his warm body protecting me from the cold chill of the night. It felt nice. I gave a long sigh and soaked in the wrong that felt so right. “Maybe I won’t go to Theade.” I felt him chuckle through his chest. Low and resonating. Soothing.

“Yes you will. You have to. It’s what you really want. You have always talked about it.” He talked without looking at me, still holding me in his arms.

“Well im not sure if that’s what I truly want right now. Right now Theade seems so secondary compared to-“

He cut me off. “Don’t say it. We don’t need encouragement.” I could feel his skin on my forehead. He was smiling. I pulled away a little so I could look up at him.

“So what do you call this, right now?” I gave a little smile, but kept my eyes serious.

“I call this…living in the moment.” Looking down at me, he kissed my forehead. “Besides, we still have a few months until you go…why not enjoy it?” He smiled again. It was a big smile, almost teasing. I could not help myself from thinking about the effects.

“Why not enjoy it? Because it’s wrong…But its right. But morally its wrong. So we can’t…I mean it’s just not right…” I shifted in his arms to see his face, smile gone, stone serious, his eyes studying the same cluster of trees in the distance. “What about Carol?” I knew I shouldn’t have said it but it had been slamming around in my brain like an abused racquetball. His arms tensed a little and then fell loose, not grasping me close any longer.

“Ive..Ive been avoiding her. Every night I go home, I finish up paper work, eat with her, and sleep with her. But…I just don’t see what I see with you. It’s never been like this before. When we married I was so sure we were in love, and maybe we were, and still are…But this is so much different. More than love even. If I knew this was even an emotion, Im not sure I would have said ‘I do’.” I reached  back around myself and took a hold of his hands. They dangled between us, connected by more than just skin to skin contact. I squeezed them and stood on my tip-toes so that my face was close to him. He let go of my hands and placed them on my back again to pull me in and kiss me.

I have been with numerous guys in my teenage years. All different from the next. I had never really felt love, unsure of what it truly was. I can count the number of first kisses I’ve had with guys on both of my hands and about half of my toes. All different guys, but the same kiss. Giggly, teasing, young. It was never fulfilling.

In this moment, I truly understood the meaning of kissing. It was weak at first. Maybe he was scared of hurting me. His lips barely pressed agains mine. He breathed in slowly, and exhaled, letting a little verbal sigh slide. His hands wandered up my back, one into my hair. I began to kiss back. Slow and careful. He was the one risking it all, and I did not want to push it. I allowed my hand you slide up between us and placed it on his cheek. He pulled away for a second and looked at me. No words can be used to describe that precise moment. With my hand on his cheek I pulled him in again. He kissed my lips. So soft and delicate. He trailed away, from my chin, to my cheek, to my ear. Kissing and breathing into my ear. I layed my head on is sholder as he caressed my ear with his lips. His hands firm on my back and in rubbing my neck. I breathed in. His aftershave filled my nose and a power came over me. I kissed his neck. He stopped for a second, and I kissed it again, longer this time. Then his jaw line, to his chin. He moaned a little and looked up at the sky.

“look at the stars” he said. I stopped and  looked up. “They’re so beautiful, shining, everlasting.”

“Its almost as if they are shining for a purpose. With haste for some beloved idea.” I whispered.

He continued to gaze up at them but pulled me closer and tightened his hold. “They’re shining for you.”

His pocked buzzed. “Shit” he said. He pulled out his phone. “I..I…Ive got to take this….Its Carol.” I let go of him but he didn’t release me.

“Hey, whats up?” He rested his chin on my head and slid his free hand from my back to my hand where it stayed. He was quiet for a while and the said “where? Ok…Yeah I’ll be there. See you soon. Uh..yeah…” He squeezed my hand “…Love you too.”

“Is everything alright?” His face had gone pale in the starlight.

“Um yeah, its Carol. She’s gone into labor. I need…I need to go.” He lifted my hand and kissed it. “Ill see you soon.”

I watched as he almost jogged away into the darkness after his birthing wife. Life is so damn complicated I thought as I stood, watching the lightning bugs begin to disappear as the night grew cold.

 The End

I know that there are A LOt of mistakes but I wrote it very quickly and didn't really care.

 

 

Oh La La :]

Salut mes amies!

So I've been having interesting thoughts about myself recently. Concerning a few things that I do not reveal until I am completely sure for myself. Now here they are. (This is the part where you get ready for a list and yell,

 "Oh yay!! Maxwell Dorian!!"         Or not.

1. Thing one. Thought process

How do you think? When you see something do you think about it more than when you hear something? If you read a statement that says "Jan jumped over the log", do you think about the action more that you would if someone were to read it to you? Can you picture the scene faster perhaps? Maybe begin to expand the idea? The log was rotten, beginning to decay and turn into soil. I seem to process information better when I see it. I do not like listening to people. Like that phrase "believe none of what you hear and half of what you read"....Or maybe it was the other way around. I dont know. Whatever Im confused.

2. Thing two. Sex

Hah. Laughable topic. The good ole eff you see cay.

I cant decide upon this subject. A constant battle in my head. I almost feel as though a relationship is not needed for the latter to occur. In relationships I seem to wilt.

Maybe they arnt for me. Its been just about a year since I have been in a long term relationship. And even that only lasted less than 12 months. It suffocated me. I need to breath. I need to be out there. Since then I have flitted from guy to guy, eyeing the wrong men, developing a taste for the untouchable. Ive been just fine. Of course I have my moments where I want that affection...But they are always short lived and silly. Maybe one day I will meet a man who can truly amaze me. Truly interest me. Truly satisfy me in a way without touch. Maybe then Ill commit my live there forth in his hands. 

I know this day is not a close one. Even if I did meet someone as I described, personally, and emotionally, I would not be able to tie mine to his. And thats that.

3. Thing three. "Unschooling"?

http://news.yahoo.com/video/health-15749

655/extreme-parenting-radical-unschoolin

g-19218933#video=19228283

These parents are going about it all wrong but have the best idea. It will evolve with time though, and the path to true education will be golden!

Back So Soon?

I know I say this pre every post I write but, it really has been a while.

My past few posts have been all quips that arrive in my brain when I press the little "New Post" link. Nothing real special. On twitter I follow some photography blogs that give out tips and post sample shots etc and I thought it would be nice to post some of MY photography. Something I don't think Ive done on this blog before. Any feed back- good or bad- is welcomed on these! Remember though, I have never had a true photography class and have learned most everything I know from blogs and the instruction booklet.

  

  

No idea.

Have you ever felt as if you dont belong?

Something is stirring that makes me feel out of place, out of time, out of mind.

Its an odd thing. Deep deep within my soul.

Like the north winds blow cold.

Its difficult to ignore.

It calls me to an age before my time. Something so strongly about that era.

Ties that need to be undone.

Knots that should be cut.

I plead for it to stop.

Stop.

Stop.

stop...

It could be the end of you.

It could be the end of me.

And quite possibly the end of us.

Jeff Goldblum vs. Conan Obrien

Men men men men men men.
Thats the theme to that show two and a half men! Haha I love that show. Kinda.
So today i felt like typing and this is the only class i can do it in so BAM IM TYPING.
For the past week or so my stomach has been feeling funky. I hope i dont have the flu. I already had it and it SUCKS. BLAH.
Anyway today i have to work and then do 897987 hours of homework! Joy!! I love AP classes SO MUCH :D
Cough cough.
So I kinda think Jeff Goldblum is tres sexy! What is wrong with mee! Hes like 60 and he dates 20 year olds! Whats wrong with me, WHATS WRONG WITH HIM :o
Hes sexy thats whats wrong with him. You know who else is sexy?

CONAN OBRIEN

ORGASM

UHHHHHHHHH


Ok whew. That tired me out. pant pant.


People are reading over my shoulder. EEK. Ill stop writing about the..sexxy...beasts who could be my dad..oo...they can be my dadddy x] hehe...
I kinda decided in my mind that i will meet my soul mate while going to school in Pittsburgh. I seem to really connect with everyone who was born there. Maybe theres a high concentration of old souls there? IDK.

Ok well the guy that uses this computer is here, so i have to stop writing and give it to him. OK byee :[

...

Why? What are our reasons for actions. What are our actions for reason? Why do we urge ourself to do what we do? Is it personal oppion, or option? Is it our ideas? Is it our surroundings? Influence? What is that push that makes us go. And why? Life is confusing. The only part that is strait is the parts that show us directly. Growth, death, Newtons laws. When a plant grows, it gets bigger. Nothing else. When It dies, it cripples up and decays. Nothing else. But creatures, have reasons, wheter they know it or not. Animals have instinct. We do to, although we wish to ignore them. Blinking, Looking, touching. Stuff life this.

Ashamed

I usually dont talk politics. Usually I just talk about ideas and society. But recently i feel as though i need to say this.

AMERICA- SHUT THE FUCK UP

I noticed more and more how much the Republican party smears President Obama. Its really sad, and quite honestly childish. Obama won from a popular vote, people WANTED him to be president. So that's what happened. STOP WHINING AND SIT DOWN. Yes Bush did some bad things, but the poor guy, how would you feel? Obama is trying to do the things he talked about and he's trying to make a difference. And all you people with different ideas are just being SELFISH. Why cant we all just work together and let everyone have a turn!! We are not kids, SO WHY ARE WE ACTING LIKE THEM!!?!??!?!?!

After realizing how far our country has declined, and why its been a downhill slope, Ive lost my patriotism. Its not as cool to be part of the 'Kid club' than it is the 'Real World'.

I'm sorry that America is the way it is. And I feel bad for people in other countries who have a glorified picture of us. We might be the land of dreams, but if you dream all day long, nothing ever gets done.

Basically I'm saying we're just going down the crapper.

Goodbye America.

You go down the hole.

This may be a bit blurry but I found this (via google) and thought it would be a good example.

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The Max Factor

Wow I know I say its been a long time since Ive posted but this time Im NOT lying.

So Many MANY things have gone on since I last posted. So we're going to do this in month order starting with.....

 June

 June was a long month. It stated out with school letting out and Brothers graduation. This was big for me because alot of my friends were seniors and I would most likely never see them again :[ So we had a party and shortly after I was on a plane to France. France was pretty fun. I stayed with a family for about 9 days outside of Toulouse. I really learned alot about culture and the way they lived. Then we went to Paris for 4 days where I had a sinus infection, got my period, had a breakdown, and ordered my first alcoholic beverage at a bar. That fucking drink cost 10 fucking euros. FML. Anywho even though all that stuff happened I still LOVED it and had THE best time ever. After France, I came home and pulled the plug on my 6 month long relationship. I think France made me feel younger and ALIVE and I came home and felt trapped..Idk. So that was basically June...Except for starting at Chilis...Where I now work...

July

July is a month I dont really remember. I did alot of working and stuff. For the 4th I went to a firework thing in our town and hung out with some peoples. And By the end of July we had planned to go on VACA to the beach.

August

So on the first weekend in August we went on vacation to the outer banks. We brought our dogs and shared a small house with some family friends. Then we got kicked out. Thats always fun btw..in case you were wondering. So my mom and I took a dog and drove down to Cape Hatteras where we camped and suffered from millions of mosquito bites. Plus my camera broke so I lost half of my soul..After that night we drove again to Okercoke. There we spent 70 bucks and rented a hotel room. I walked around the streets for a bit and got whistled at twice. This made me smile. After we got back from the beach I turned around and went back to Richmond for Robot Chicken's Skate party. There I met Seth Green and Matthew Senriech. I also gave each Gym Class Hero a really good high five and a "good job". Eye contact rules. So after all that ordeal, Things calmed down.  I had a love affair with toxic waste, and soon came to love men I could not touch. Things suck when you're under age. School started and thats been going on for quite some time now.

So right now im dealing with more things than the number of fingers on my hand. But Im all chipper. Saving up for a Canon Rebel so I can get my soul back. I also am waiting to trade rooms with my brother. Hes being a jerk though. PLUS i want to buy a new computer to play sims 3. :]]

Ok Im sure this post takes up an hour to read but whatever. Not like anyones going to read it anyway. :]] Night!!

PS: HA Mr. Harner I CAN type fast without using your precious "Home keys". HA.

Blathers

Scarlet stood on the wet pavement looking into the mist that rolled by. Her eyes adjusted to the dark as she made out a man and a large dog sauntering toward her in the dark. The mans face was hidden by the shadow and his breath raspy. She widened her eyes and took a stepped back, her cotton nightgown flowing as she did.

BOO :]

New post. Yup. Its been a while since ive blogged though...SORRY!

hahahahaha like anyone reads this anyway. maybe my imaginary friends....like.....people.........who dont exsist.....like.........
That was real sketch...hahaha

Ok so things new in my life.

• Im taking behind the wheel!! So i get my license by friday hopefully! and ive got the best teacher, because he doesnt really care what we do aslong as we dont speed and dont brake the laws of the road. AND he gets stuff for us to eat for micky dees. yum yum.



• I GOTS A PUPPY! YAY! His name is Westcott and he is a mini dauschund chiauhauh mix. ADORABLE.
  

• Im failing math :/ oh well i still have A's in EVERY other class except for math where that F remains steady. Joy.


• Only 17 some days left till school ends!! YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!


• Then we leave for France June 14th!!! :D


• AND OMFG I MISS LATE NIGHT WITH CONAN OBRIEN SO BADLY THAT I WATCH CLIPS OF HIS SHOW OVER AND OVER JUST TO REMEMBER WHY I LOVE HIM SO!! CONAN COMES BACK ON ON JUNE 1ST AT 11:30 PM ON NBC INPLACE OF LENO!!


• Ill miss you too Leno :[


• Prom is on the 16th and my bff Lindsay was asked by my ex and im super happy for her :D


• Speaking of happy, Im verry verrrrrrry verrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry happy with my boyfriend. We have our wrinkles but who doesnt? :]


• Summer is almost here :/ joy.

And thats most of all of it.....

bye bye

shhh im not posting this....

hello to the blog world :]
Im in bio right now doiing the "internet lab" we are sapose to be doing. Something about guppies. Then after this we're going to watch bill nye.
PLUS OMFG BKIUSDHFKUSHDKFHSKDUFHSJDHFUS
IM GETTING A PUPPYYYY :DD
HES A MIX BETWEEN A MINI DASCHUND AND A CARIN TERRIER/CHIUAUA MIXXXX :]]]

HES SO CUTE. ill totally post pics.
im goint to name him westcott.
and call him westcottie >.<
yay!

Like uber duber later

Yeah so i know i havent posted since that lasat post (naw really??), so im back! yay!
this past week was spring break and nothin much happened. I went to NY and spent time with Allen (>.<). Thats about it. i also took some pichas and picniked them. we swam in the pool, and i started to write a story on my phone. but twas a dead end. hahaha. laterally.

Hahahaha i foind this really cool website that has little knick nacky things on it. Kinda like fredflair.com :]

Click here!!


:D

Too Bad So Sad

I...just had a slim jim.

after 3 months of being clean i dirtied my body with its fattining yummyness yet again.
*drules*
I think i need a trip to the dollar store...soon....now.....

SLIMMM JIMMM

Ok...better.
SO today is monday the 30th of march. Almost April. Then May. Then June...THE FRANCE :D
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY

hahaha ok. Yeah Allen and i are back to gether, He got a job, ive got an orthodontist appointment today...and i feel like writing. My teacher's cat had kittens and i really want one. maybe mom will say yes. :] he has 2 grey ones and 2 black ones. i gatta start thinkin bout names.]
hrmm.

Guys

1. Fletcher
2. SkyGuy
3. MacGyver
4. Omar
5. Pye Wacket
6. Solo
7. Stallone
8. Yoda
9. Ichabod
10. Spartan
11. Bordeaux
12. Icarius
13. Janus

Girls

1. Gertie
2. Kimba
3. Pompeii
4. Baccarat
5. Audi
6. Bugatti
7. Wheety
8. Javi

Sad Days

I broke it off with Allen..
and im not going into detail but i really think he came to early in my life. Maybe if we happen again in college it will last :]

To keep my mind off of things ive been going to Failblog.org alot. Go there. its good therapy.
Plus i got some of my favorite pichas. So ima post them.
hahah more pichas. great :/

en francais

Bonjour!!
je suis dans l'ecole. Mon DPM classe :]
Aujourd'hui je s'habille comme un Rock star?
haha daccord je ne suis pas que'dit.

Mk so maybe i cant right french as well as i can speak it...idk... X)

So today Im going to post pictures i think. Ive got about 30 min left in class and im done with everything. So ive got some time to play!! Yay!!

Sleepwalking Dog :]

Maliea looked around nervously. Did those people know her secret? Were those people drinking coffee outside the local bristro out for her, and only waiting for her to make a wrong move, or slight turn the wrong way? It was a sickaning feeling. And still she was used to it. She had to. She got up off of her bench and headed down the street. Down the street the police were holding up traffic and checking their cards. beads of sweat started to show on her brow. she whiped them with her sleave and.....ect.

lol idk

Today is the Off day.

Hello there. Today has been my off day. im wearing sweats and chucks. i NEVER wear sweats out of the house but today i said screw it. Mostly because im SO tired and im soar from running yesterday. Yeah summer and i really booked it. We ran with the soccer team who was conditioning in the gym alongside us. so we joined in the frolicking fun. Haha
So ive found this essay contest for GS and 6 girls will win a trip to Mexico. sooo im thinking about entering. You gatta write a 500 word essay about how girl scouts helps something. and the give a list of topics. bla de bla de bla. Speaking of girl scouts i have a meeting today. i think we will be going over that rockers night were doing for the b&g club. and maybe our gold awards.
OH! Im pretty sure ive found my project for the GA. Im going to educate 10 graders and some 9th graders about college and what you can do to increase your acceptance rate. Plus ill focus alittle about things to study in college. I mean alot of people say "i want to do that" but they dont know what "that" is. My job will be to help them find out exactly what "that" is, and what to study. Sounds ok? i guess.
Also, ive been doing some college searing myself and my counselor helped me narrow it down to 10 schools. So im on track :]
God ive got so much to write.

PLUSS:
I was looking through national geographic and they had a picture of a mouse and all of a sudden i wanted mice again. so i made a list of names and wanted mice sooooo badly but it was shot down by my mother dearest.
The book im reading now is still On Writing by Steven King and i recommend it even more. :]
He continues to make me laugh in quiet rooms filled with test taking people and send me to serious land with one sentence. Its amazing.
And i think im passing math now! Yay!
Uhhhh..trying to think about things to write...

*blank*
good bye now
bye bye.
allllllrighty then.

Videos de Youtube.

I like this one because its an 80s vid. Plus its like an acid trip and VERY catchy :]





Wish I was British.

Snow Snow Snow Snow.

YAY!

Snow!! I love it. to death. In NY we had snow ALOT. and now in VA all we get is some dustings. And a few slightly heavy snows. But never anything like we got in NY. I loved it.

So right now im reading On Writing by Stephen King. Im very much enjoying this book. And he is very easily becoming my favorite author.  Yeah.

Stephen King

The trust of the innocent is the liar's most useful tool. 

When his life was ruined, his family killed, his farm destroyed, Job knelt down on the ground and yelled up to the heavens, "Why god? Why me?" and the thundering voice of God answered, "There's just something about you that pisses me off." 

Sorry is the Kool-Aid of human emotions. It's what you say when you spill a cup of coffee or throw a gutterball when you're bowling with the girls in the leage. True sorrow is as rare as true love.

     

“People think that I must be a very strange person. This is not correct. I have the heart of a small boy. It is in a glass jar on my desk.”

“I wish for a year during which no talented young [people] die before they can realize their full potential. No Heath Ledgers, please; what a sickening shock it was to hear that on the radio. No David Foster Wallaces, either. We need all the bright lights we can get, because the world is too dark already. “

FebRuary....Ohhhhh

For some weird reason I have always spelled february 'febuary'. because thats how it sounds i guess. and just recently i discovered that there was an 'R' in the word. strange.

Ok well I dont really have much to blog about but i felt like doing somthing constructive. i REALLY feel like taking pictures of people and editing them but i have no light nor the proper camera type for this :[

I sold candy today too. I sold 12 hearshy bars for 1 buck a piece. so that made me 6 dollars richer. I should buy some recees cups or something....hrmm..

BEYAH IM BORED :D

So theres this thing called school...

Hello there!
Im at school, hehe cant you tell from the title?
thought not :b

ANYWAY, im bored and i finished all of my work in 3rd.
so im bored...and theres nothing to do i guess. i thought about making a banner for my blog but im having trouble comming up with something creative. I thought about taking pictures of diffrent things and creating a pixle-y smile face or peace sign or somthin. whatever.
I also wanted to make a collage of pictures, but i cant find any good ones that i took.
So i might just use stock photos. Its annoying how i cant get on Facebook or myspace without useing a proxy. And even then they will still watch me. Like right now.
yeah thats right. they watch your screen. I bet you some ones reading RIGHT NOW as I type it. So im just so bored that i am going to have a conversation with you.
Hello. My name is Laura!! Lets see....Im 16 years old and right now im in DMP ( incase you want to come and arrest me or whatever :b) ANYWAY, I find it really creepy that you can see everything im doing. there should be a way for me to know weather or not your there...like....idk.
So i really want to know about you. Whats your name? and how much do they pay you to look at the students computer screens. How much fun could that BE!? like not fun at all I bet. Do you really think somebody is going to look up porn or somthing? i bet you wouldent even stop them....because you might even enjoy it. Hahahaha. wow. thats.....nevermind.
Are you a guy or a girl? How old are you (if your older than 40 just say 40). And how come im talking to you? Because Im bored as hell. I still have 10 min untill 4th block begins. If you want to come visit me there im in room 144. but you probably know that already because you and your stalker slef probably already got out that big book to find a Laura in 3rd block DMP. god. your such a creeper. xD
So if I gave you my email and a list of people i needed info on would you send all of their info to me? please?
i'll just pretend you said yes. YAY.
even though you probably said no. I just talked to the teacher about youes guys.
lol
BYE BELL

SUPER BOWL 2009

not much to say today.

STEELERS 

WON THE SUPER BOWL.

I GUESS IM A FAN NOW X]

hahaha here are some shots of that AWESOME game :b

        

This Was A Triumph....Im Making A Note Here, Huge Success

Are you guilty of drunk dialing?
hell no


Do your parents smoke?
Nope :]


Last person to comment you?
idk....im to lazy to check.


Are you a snob at school?
no?


Last person to hear you cry?
summer :]


Hardest class you have?
uhhh probably Algebra 2..
lol


Do you like soulja boy?
dat soulja boi needs to git shot.
in a war.


Who was the last friend to stay the night at your house?
Allen :]


What do you think about President Bush?
that his last name is funny.
Kinda like....tree.....or rock........or.........dot


What kind of mood are you in right now?
tired, cold and creative :b


When was the last time you drank alcohol?
guhhhhh....like....2 months ago maybe....i dont remember..


How old were you when you moved where you live now?
like 12


Where is the person you want to kiss right now?
at his dad's house, sitting in his room in a chair, playing oblivion, talking to me :]


Do you believe in love at first sight?
Sorta Kinda.


Fact about the person you fell hardest for?
hehehe.
hes awesome beyond belief x]


Food you are eating?
i was eating chocolate but i stopped.


Do you own an iPod?
yuppers. its my life :]


Are you in highschool?
class of 10 YeAH


Any TV show addictions?
umm....House, Scrubs, Friends, Late Night with Conan Obrien.


Does addiction of anything run in your family?
nope:]


Were you born in the country you live in today?
yes. unfortunately :[


How do you feel about your relationship status?
like its not real -.- E>


Last person to make you smile?
ALLEN!!!!!!!!!!!


What kind of backpack/purse do you use?
its green, and its got buttons all over it :D


Who's most like you on your top friends?
huh?
NO ONE IS LIKE ME!
I AM UNIQUE!
>:O


Last person to text you?
Allen


What are you wearing?
clothes made from thread'n stuff


Do you like Hannah Montana?
I like hannah montana like a british person likes muslim people.


Do you wear a uniform to school?
nooooooooooooooo, but i used to :/


Are you dating the last person you kissed?
YUPPER :D


How do you feel about life as of right now?
its awesometasticle



Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone? 
yeah....uh...my dad, my mom, brian, jamie, and jamies dad.
lol


When you're walking, do you stop to drink?
YES i cant drink and walk at the same time :/


Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it? 
yupper


Have you ever kissed someone in a vehicle? 
duh :x


Ever snuck out of your house? 
once


Would you ever get a tattoo? 
sure!!


What was the last thing you ate? 
CHOCOLATE


What would you do if you opened up your front door to a dead body? 
'Oh...so who sent me this?'


Do you like to spend time with people? 
kinda....depends on who it is.


Are you a forgiving person? 
yeah :/


Are you talking to anyone while doing this? 
Allen


What are you about to do? 
post this, shower'n stuff.


Done anything you regret so far in life? 
NOPE :D


Where are you right now? 
ma roooom :]


What are you scared of? 
tosters, sewing machines, fast moving objects, and the dark


Last movie you watched? 
uh...i guess star wars although i didn't really watch it...lol


Last song you sang out loud? 
HAHAHA.
Still Alive.


this was a triumph...im making a note here, huge successes. its hard to over state my satisfaction!


Are you thinking of someone right now? 
NO.
I NEVER THINK OF ANYONE.
but Allen.


Who is the last person you talked to on the phone? 
mum


Last thing you downloaded on your computer? 
uhhhh....a song


Have you changed much this year? 
kinda


Where was the last place you went besides where you are? 
subway.


Do you speak any other language? 
je parle un peu de francais.


Do you dress for style or comfort? 
comfort first, style second.


Ever had a drunken night in Mexico?
if i thought i was in mexico does it count?


Favorite color(s)? 
none.


What are you looking forward to this summer? 
FRANCEEEE :DDD


Last time you smiled? 
after i read the word 'smiled'


If you could have anything in the world, what would you want?
1000000000000000000000 bazzzzzion wishes >.<

ITS THE FINAL COUNTDOWN

Hello hello hello!!

Im back for another blog post! Oh boy!!

H'ohkay so today we had another snow day. We had snow on Tuesday, which kept us out of school until today (thursday). Its stupid, we had like 1 inch. IF that. Whatever, our county is retarded. So today I woke up around 12 and then I watched brian, my brother, play Saints Row 2.

Theeeeeen I went outside and took some pictures. That was my day. Fun fun fun stuff eh?

Somthing cool I got was a new issue of Teen Vogue, and in it I found a web sight called Fredflair.com. You should go there. Its got all this neat nick knacky stuff thats awesome. So yeah, go there. 

So tomorrow is Friday and we have school(finally). Then after that its Saturday and Im going to a party with a few friends. Not the PARTYPARTYPARTY group mind you, but these friends wont be gone next year so I guess I should spend time with them too >.<

Ive been thinking a lot about college lately. Since I know what I want to study, its easy to get excited. I think Im planning on going to VCU and majoring in Graphic Design, and minoring in Photography. Im really excited. I haven't thought about where Im going after Im done there....Probably to NYC or Washington DC for magazine editing or something like that :]

Well Im going to do another Post with a survey in in so Im going to wrap this one up.

Bye bye now!

:]

ZOMG ITS A NEW YEAR!

So. Its been a good few months in which i have not posted. I doubt any one reads this but ohhhhhhhhh well :]

The new year has brought some things with it! So this brings me to a section Im going to call...

IN 2009

- On december 14th 2008 i began my current relationship with Allen!! :]

- I have started running on tuesdays and thursdays after school with my girl Summer!!

- I got 2 A's and 2 B's on my report card :]

- I got like 300 bucks for France!!

- My hair has grown longer!

- I've uploaded some video's onto YouTube!! http://www.youtube.com/user/LoraLizabeth

- I have new classes that seem easy :D

 

so thats basically it. Nothing REAL exciting. But oh well.

       

Rant time.

bla bla bla.ok. so heres the delio.Im bored as crap. i feal like i have no friends. just because im to lazy. or somthing..i sit on my ass all day doing nothing thinking i should do somthing.but i dont. ive gained 3 lbs since ive started dieting. i hate my fat. and i cant stop eating. i eat when im bored. and oh yeah! thats ALL the time.and.the guy i practicly love is a jerk with a girlfriend.and i just want to forget about her and cut to the chaise. and he just wants some ass.iknow.im to nice to be a bitch.:[oh yeah. i still cant spell and my stupid spacebar is jamed. but i cant get a new on because im saving 100000000000 bucks for france.DJKDGHJK bhjddf blarg.

yup. I LOVE new york.

NY.
NOT the big apple NY.
the upstate homey new york.
So im staying with my grandparents for two weeks here in small town upstate new york.
i used to live 30 min from here too. i miss it like nothing else. the town is small. the people are sooo nice. and its convienient!!

i get alot of inspiration from stayng here.
ive already had thoughts of a 007 fanfiction, but ive added onto it in my head and even written some of it down :]
plus ive started a Oblivion fanfiction about a Dunmer/Imperial mix that was orphined. i might make a seprate blog just for that!!
yay

ok so ive been trying to decide what i want for my birthday.
any ideas?

Bonjour!! Jemapelle Laure!!

guess what?
laura is SINGLE.
bring out the rum and hulla skirts.
orange juice and lemmon juice.
and a wine glass.
HAHA
my idea of a good time!! :]



so i havent posted in a while.
but here are some things about me from this point.
-im getting into the show Remmington Steele.
-i got a small odd job job that pays 10 bucks an hour.
-im leaving to go to NY on friday the 18th.
-i was thinking about getting bangs.
-ive still been confused by someone i care about.
-ive developed a love for seltzer water.
-and mixing drinks. an example is the one above...XD jk
-im now reading Ian Flemmings novels.
-Live Wire guys are sexy hawt.
-Pierce Brosnan is my new faaaavorite actor.
-im still slightly obsessed with Obrien.
-i watched Rose Red without screeming.
-ive earned 30 bucks for fance.
-i joined Twitter at https://twitter.com/LoraLizabeth
-ive givin up on the VCR we own.
-if i had an accent, it would be arab.
-DaveDays is awsome. The real Deal.
-i want to do somthing on Youtube but i dont have the right camera for it >:[
-ive developed a small ocd habit :[
-sometimes i use bennendryle to sleep


thats all pretty much. i havent really started any james bond FF but i have had some ideas. nothing on paper though...
im still conentrating on Star wars FF.
so mabee ill publish(psh) a book of short stories. :]
all for now
-Laura Elizabeth

i think

i would like to learn russian.

and mabee fly to korea.

and learn korean too.

and grow my hair out.

and publish some story.

about some person.

who did somthing great.

so i could earn money.

so i could buy a godam mac.



:[

life

i wish life were a video game :[
sometimes while playing a game like oblivion ill save and kill the people who piss me off. ilike to do that. jump up ontop of a house and just shoot gaurds with arrows and fire balls.
then, they stop showing up and the bodies are littering the ground. then i start on other people. i only spare the ones i like. then i load and get up in the people i killed faces. i love doing that. somthing about that makes me feel happy. hahahahaha im such a looser.

anyway, im looking for somthing to do to keep my mind off how stupid life is. any ideas? thought not. no one even reads this anyway. haha they have better things to do.

and dixon owes me 6 bucks. for lunch.

whatever.

goodnight moon...

"yes but the REAL reason you are here is to investigate jack's disappearance. I know, i was the one who shot him....or so Nicole says."
She took a sip of wine and settled into the chair opposite her.
"hmm. That wouldn't make sense. my information tells me that he is being held hostage by your father." Anne thought the information he received was correct. confused, she looked into Paige's eyes for clues. But Paige offered only words.
"hah. I'm sorry to disappoint you, but your friend wont be found alive, if he is found at all."
she smiled, but her eyes saddened.
"why did Nicole stage you?" Asked Anne.
"because shes a bitch. You know, my step-mother, her mom, would only marry my father if she took Niki in as his own. My father though, he couldn't except her as his child. He was too attached to me. Nicole knew that the bond we shared was because of my mothers death. so her plan was made. She would shoot me, and make it look like Jack had done it. getting jack out of her life, and me out of my dad's hair. then she would-"
"-take your place as daddy's little princess. She was smart to think of that."Paige looked a little flustered but kept at her story.
"What she didn't know is that Jack and i had, er...encounters. She was prepared for the murder emotionally, so with dad's hand gun, she followed jack down the hallway and into the room. of course the last thing jack was thinking about was self defence. there she sat, outside my door until he heard talking. Then it just happened. i heard the door swing open, and pushed jack away form me. she saw movement, and shot. too bad for jack that he was the one moving.
she dropped the gun and ran out." this time the sadness spread throughout her face, bringing down her smile. Paige looked like she was on the verge of tears.
"what did your father think?"
Paige took a heavy breath and continued.
"he wasn't in. Instead the kitchen staff came huffing down the hallway. of course i was mortified, seeing all this in a day really put my wits on end. i just broke down."
Seeming to end the story, she showed a silly smile and recomposed herself.
"so why am i here? i came for jack, and that's not a possibility, so now what. why are you telling me?" As Anne asked this question, Paige's eyes wondered off and she began to tell.
"because the amount of things going wrong with my father is just to much for him. I'm afraid his mental state is chipping away. he often gets out of control and throws fits. and I'm pretty sure he would burn down the white house to save me, which scared me. He usually tells me how good I'm going to fit in in the new world. and....and i think hes being truthful." Paige was more flustered than she was before. Anne was worried of where this was going and was sure she wouldn't like it, But encouraged her to continue.
"go on.."
"the other day i did some snooping. All i needed was a red marker, and so i went looking in his office. I know he keeps that stuff at top security, but he would never dare lock anything away from me. So as i was rummaging though the drawer, i noticed a small hole in the corner. It was a false bottom. i emptied the drawer and lifted the bottom, and underneath were papers and documents signed by all foreign sounding names. the name i recognised was Kysko Huni. who is-"
"-one of the most powerful men in north Korea. thought to hold hundreds of nuclear labs across his small empire." Anne finished for her. the story began to go together in her head.
"yes, anyway i was shocked to see these papers of power agreements and negotiation. almost like he was leading a double life." Paige finished with a desperate glance at Anne. Anne thought about this, and something seemed wrong. Then she remembered what she had read in the update on the Network that morning.
"but that doesn't really make sense."She began, "Huni disappeared a week ago while in Germany for a treaty signing. The UN thought it was assassination, but as much as they investigated, they couldn't scrape a hint of evidence. And that still doesn't explain why I'm here." Now the story fell apart, and Anne was at the beginning again. Yet again, Paige had an explanation.
"That's when i knew my father was up for no good. This could destroy our family, or worse. So i made an anonymous call and told a little white lie. I knew my father would be on the lookout for his names in the networks, so i used the Jack story. Now you are here and i want you to find out what he is up to. please, i know this might seem like a huge favor, but its all i ask." Paige was upset, but she knew this had to be done. Anne could see how much she loved her father and how worried she was that he was making all the wrong choices. so, she had little objection in agreeing with Paige.
"alright. ill peak around." she answered.

Its just...

information is your best weapon in your arsenal. never underestimate a good lie. with information and a well told lie, you may live a little longer, or just get something you want. i never really thought about the things i know and how much some people want to know them. the ways you can twist them and influence them to do something or get something in return for the information is awesomeness. i know i haven't fully understood and mastered this though. I'm still struggling with the part with returning the favor. i do know that in some parts of the world, information can be sold and bought just like merchandise. sold to the highest bidder or payer. but you have to be tricky and hope they don't screw you over with something that's worthless. so i guess instead of trading information you should sell it for solid things like food or money.
of course you always have the risk your informer is lying. but you too can play that game. use the information you have and change it around. twist it up or make it shorter. if it doesn't make much sense, explain how you picked it up off of a drunk man in Zimbabwe. it always works. trust me.


or don't because i have no experience. I'm just a little girl blogging ever so innocently.
or am i?
:0

Sean Connery's Finest

i love this!

?help?

what the heck is love?

interffearemce

the noise like a mad bull pushing forward with all of its might.
the awsomeness of its inderence has kept me wondering.
working working working untill the job is done.
untill the rain stops and the beeping ceeses.
the time is now and the night is young.
i hold on to my life like a frightened child.
clinging to the blankie all torn and whitered with holes.
My life was like that blanket.
i held tight, ripping the blanket even more untill it fell apart in my hands.
falling to the floor and turning to ash.
the bull stoped charging.
the rain stoped and the beeping ceesed.
the night slowly faded away into dawn.
the light melting my body.
melting my body onto the floor where i lay.
frozen in time.
slightly smiling.
time for me to die.
-laura 3:35 pm June 16th 2008
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this was an emoish poem that was VERY random.
hope you like/hate it.
hope it makes you think.

Tim Russet...Why did you have to die?

ok so this guy was my all time fav reporter dude. i always laughed at his face.(in a good way) just thought id share that with the world..
here is a pic


T.T sad isnt it..

Today At The Library....

i searched skizzers on Google.
looked at ninja pictures.
cut up paper.
had a comment fight with dixon on facebook.

my day was productive. :]

Sexy Actors That Make The Movie Worth Its Gold

ok so boyfriend or no boyfriend, a girls gatta have her eye candy right??
so here are some SHL(sexy hunks of love) that got my eye.

first off, who couldent resist a dangerous man named Bond, James Bond..
yum
im not so into the looks of the older bonds, but Pierce Brosnan caught my eye and soon after Daniel Craig. Somthing about thier sexy, coldblooded humor..makes ME want to be a Bond girl! :b and doesnt daniel's body just perfect for a speedo?

another man on my mind david duchovny. oh man. he drives me insane. haha lol

some more to come!!!!

dixon

everyone thinks he is a horrible person because is mean to the people he knows and nice to the people he doesnt know.

by the way, i really like coffie ice cream.

oh yeah, and he doesnt answer phones and he just asked me if this was the teen library blog. :[

and now he is creating a blog called "dixons blog that is way cooler than lauras"

to visit it go here: dixons bullcrap blog

and leave tome nasty comments why dont ya!?

Blog Away From Blog

ok so its been awhile sice ive bloged. but anyway im at school and were saposda be doing sol review, but furk that. anyway i took a 20 question practice test and got a 95 on it. so i think ill do ok. DI globals are comming up and uhh...ermm..oh yeah! ive started to make theese croshed blacelets that are soo cute to sell. ok. by

why i hate my county.

so today i had a breakdown. witch i do often. when i break down i dont get all teary and angry, i get all crazy and angrey and start cussing people out and talk about how bad my county is. it was gym, and we were walking the track. and all of a sudden, i just got REALLLY pissed at my school system.i started yelling "WHAT THE FUCK IS FUCKING WRONG WITH FUCKING ______ COUNTY!!!!!!!!" i started to ask my bf why the locals were so dumb, and why we lived there. i decided once im out of this freaking county, im NEVER comming back. anyway. i miss NY. why cant VA be like NY? i started thinking abouth thingsin my home town that i missed. like going to the creek. which was a river, but in NY you called rivers creeks. anyway, going to the river and fishing for crawdads. or making tube shoots. or swimming accros the creek and climbing the rock wall to jump off into the water. or on homecomming at church. in my old hamlet thing, there was only one church that everyone went to, so we would all bring food and go accross the street to the public park and eat and play. i remember the slide was so big to me! :[
hopefully im going back this summer to live with my grandperents for 1 month. i wanted to get a job, visit that park, meet up with old friends, and just try to remember mychildhood there. i miss it T.T

nights now!!
♥

And Now Ladies And Gents..

a list for you!
this list is of people with toooootaly orgasmiclyawsomeomg voices. :D
in no order i might say as well.

so the first guy(there all guys) i can think of is..

Abiter.
o-m-g. what could be better than this guy. super alien from Halo, you would never guess this guy to be on my list! but yup. here he is.



James Earl Jones
one of those 7 foot black men named jim guys. big guy deep voice. so hes an actor and stuff. voiced darth vader, andhe might sing...im not sure..idk. but yum.


Nat King Cole
all i have to say is vanillla coffie and you know how his voice sounds.
you know..he sung that song "chestnusts roasting on an open fireeeeee-"


Lord Sideous/Epireror Palpatine
star wars guy. Ian somthing is his name. forgot.
anyway, i like his voice mostly in the V and VI movies. i like the way he moves his mouth! that sounds kinda strange when i say it...
lol :D

theres more to come!!!
-Laura